As of now I think I need to change my self... What am I now, I try to figure why sudenly appear this stupid things.. Why do I need to change I dont have the reason to change my self maybe because i need to forget the past all my attitude i think, nobody wants my attitude for who I am.. they keep on pretenting that they can stay my stupid and idiot attitude.. maybe I need to change all as in all.. I already realize that need to go back to my high school attitude.. I realize my past in high school, lagi ako nakikipag talo sa mga matatalino samin maybe now I have difficulties between my freinds and studies.. when I am high school I have few friends only because Im very busy with my study but look at me know parang tanga na talga kahit sino ata kausapin ko sa technical no body wants to trust me... maybe I need to change a bit not a bit maybe alot... namimiss ko na yung dati kong ginagawa yung lagi nakikipagtalo sa mga honors then sobrang tuwa pa ako dati na second honor lang ako after graduate but now look at me and when I look my self in mirror Im very very dissapoint with my self, "what I did to my self, parang kontento na ako inaasar ng mga tao at pinapalabas na ok lang. but deep inside im not ok im just pretending" I realize this stupid thin when my friend call me parang nakikimusta lang.. sabi niya pa nga musta na studies ko then I told her na ayun nababaliw na.. sabay banat niya ikaw nababaliw naku taas ata ng mga grade mo.. parang sampal sa bato sakin parang biglang bumaliktan ang mundo ko kung dati lahat ng sinasabi ko naniniwala sila but ngayon kahit ata magsalita ako ayaw nila maniwala, kelangan ko pa mag papansin para lang mapansin nila ako at makapag salita na din hai naku buhay.. why this damn things happen to me maybe ganung talga ang kapalaran.. maybe this is the time I need to change parang dati walang gala tapos ngayon puros gala ang inatupag... I think I need to change alot, maybe iwas gala muna kelangan ko ibalik ang pagtingin sakin ng mga highscool friends ko I dont want to dissappoint them.. I promice to my self that I need to change my self and ibalik ang dating ako.. ayoko na kase inaapi sawang sawa na ako pinipilit ko lang na ok lang ako hirap talga.. I NEED TO CHANGE that my final answer, kapag may gala ill try na umiwas muna I have a lot of thing to focus.. parang naisip ko ngayon mas mahalaga pa ang studies kesa friends kase dati bilang lang talga sa kamay ko yung friends ko pero ngayon naku kahit sino friends ko... maybe I need to less yung mga stupid activities ko.. STUDIES IS MY PRIORITIES, at ipakita sa iba na "maling tao ang binanga nila"...